I really thought I would enjoy making videos and posting them on Youtube. I excitedly started my channel, called it “Mastering Mindfulness with Pierre”, and posted two videos in the first two weeks. Then…nothing.

What happened?

Quite simply, I reflected deeply and found that I wasn’t pleased with the finished product. Upon further reflection, I concluded that I lack the skillset to improve the look, feel, and sound in my videos. My first attempts are not slick. They’re very amateurish. “Alright,” I thought, “I will learn to do these things”.

Then I became aware of a subtle resistance. Something wasn’t clicking inside and I explored that feeling. What I found was that I didn’t want to learn. Not this, anyway.

I know, of course, that over time, I could learn the skills of setting up, shooting and editing videos. That being said, I consciously chose NOT to do that. I chose to NOT learn.

Instead, I decided that I would play to my strengths, and do what comes naturally and effortlessly: write.

Learning is a joy, but not all learning is necessarily valuable. Sometimes, the time and effort can be used in ways that create more value for ourselves and for others. That’s why I’m choosing to NOT learn how to produce professional videos. Instead, I’ll use the time to produce more blog posts, and continue working on a book that will capture what I have learned over the years about living mindfully.

In conclusion, this blog is now officially resurrected. I’ll be posting more of my thoughts about mindfulness and sharing practices to develop the “muscle” of paying attention to attention.

I hope you’ll benefit from them.

Reflection: what is something that you think you should learn that you could actually choose to NOT learn?